I'm serious. [ It's similar to forming a contract -- Isn't it? At least it makes sense to Yoohyun, in that retrospect; though it may be temporary there's no reason for him not to take it seriously. He wants to believe that he has a heart that's cold enough to shut off everyone else from coming in. All with the exception of one person.
Clearly he's wrong. And as he makes that realization, his stomach twists.
He's putting someone else into consideration besides Yoojin; he's unsure of what to do with this feeling that settles in his chest, and perhaps a little terrified as his fingers slowly curl into the palms of his hands. The arms of the chair he's sitting in don't comfort him in the slightest as he's hit with a sudden wave of regret: would he be betraying his years dedicated to his own brother for wanting someone else to be close to him? ]
I'm not talking about just sex. [ Though yeah... there are plenty of iris for him to pour his seed into. The sex with Itaru was really nice though, even if he was absent during most of it. But before then he would touch him as if he were scared to -- even the kiss seemed a little reluctant, if not just awkwardly shy due to no moon to influence either of them -- and the memory of it is a harsh one to bear. ] I want you to feel safe when I hold you.
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Clearly he's wrong. And as he makes that realization, his stomach twists.
He's putting someone else into consideration besides Yoojin; he's unsure of what to do with this feeling that settles in his chest, and perhaps a little terrified as his fingers slowly curl into the palms of his hands. The arms of the chair he's sitting in don't comfort him in the slightest as he's hit with a sudden wave of regret: would he be betraying his years dedicated to his own brother for wanting someone else to be close to him? ]
I'm not talking about just sex. [ Though yeah... there are plenty of iris for him to pour his seed into. The sex with Itaru was really nice though, even if he was absent during most of it. But before then he would touch him as if he were scared to -- even the kiss seemed a little reluctant, if not just awkwardly shy due to no moon to influence either of them -- and the memory of it is a harsh one to bear. ] I want you to feel safe when I hold you.